Getting Back to Me

A month of continuous illness rotating through my house and I have come to realize that a sense of normalcy might be the key to feeling less chaotic and stressed. The road to normalcy: creating a weekly schedule (check), including at least one social activity for Emma on said schedule (check), ease back into exercising after almost two years of little-to-no exercise (check). I realize life will continue to be gloriously chaotic and we raise two babies less than a year apart, but this will reduce some of the stress that I have some control over.

In order to get back into exercising, and getting in some activities that I personally enjoy, I will begin AM and PM yoga (before the kids wake up and after the kids are in bed), as well as belly dancing. Any kind of dancing would tickle my fancy, but belly dancing is currently what is on Comcast On Demand Exercise TV under Dance, and I used to actually be fairly good at it. Maybe that will be key in helping me lose the almost impossible to lose pooch left over from the cesarean section. If not, I will have a great time trying at least!

Next on the path to getting things under control:
Laundry:
Laundry has been impossible to get under control since I've had Emma last October over a year ago. Somehow there just doesn't appear to be time. I am still having to figure out how to conquer that one. Any ideas on that one?

Making sure I follow the schedule I created, otherwise that was a waste of time, but kept me busy while simultaneously watching late night television.

I am enjoying the new changes in my life, while also slightly scared, but that's the fun part of life right? The journey and the new challenges and experiences we face...and I am thoroughly enjoying mine!

Mommy War-wounds

"When I pick up one of my children and cuddle them, all the strain and stress of life temporarily disappears. There is nothing more wonderful than motherhood and no one will ever love you as much as a small child." Nicola Horlick

Life rarely follows your plan...especially when determining life altering decisions. Giving all you've got until your body is broken, bleeding, and tired only to be told a cesarean is the only way...when you know you'd push to oblivion for that miraculous baby....and now undergo major surgery with potential dangerous after effects: which of course you'll do. Because as a mother, you would die for your child, even if you never net them. But you do! You meet them, fall even more in love, and know that incision is your reminder that you will, and did, anything for your baby. There is still a taboo and judgment against women undergoing cesarean sections. Those operations are not simple...they carry potential for death for the mothers: blood clots, pneumonia, kidney infections, blood infections, not to mention potentially reopening the incision and extended pain and not being able to hold our own children after they are born. Hold your heads high ladies. We did it for them... we already proved we would put our lives on the line for them. Our scar is that tie to our children that says, "My love, only you matter and I will always put you first over me. I have once, and will again, walk through fire for you. Baby, I love you."